Starving Artists: Starving Artists -> Full Of It Yet??

Normally when I eat, I go for seconds, even if it's just a little bit of seconds. Food is good. It's delicious. Everything social for the most part is done around food. That's just the way we are. And it's fun to eat, especially if it's delish. How could one not have seconds when food has been prepared deliciously? C'mon now.

Well, I finally 'got' the portion size. And lemme say that that is a hard thing to do. But now that I've got that under my belt, I'm finally getting the "feeling" aspect of eating. Now not only do I have to monitor my portion size, I also have to think about how I feel when I'm eating. When I was in school getting my degree, I often selected classes I thought were interesting but easy. Why not right? Hey, the simpler the better. And I found there's absolutely no class that is easy because professors will always make them hard. It's almost like it's their objective for their students to experience what they experienced when they were in college for their doctorate degree. And I hated that. How could they possibly become an obstacle for students? I never understood that. Well, eating has become that way for me now...it's almost like I'm taking a class on how to re-learn to eat. I guess I am but c'mon. We all know how to eat. Yes, I'm throwing tantrums right now. But can you blame me?

Okay, so after measuring my food and putting it on a plate, I now have to be keenly aware as to how my stomach feels. Are they kidding me? My stomach feels fine and, in fact, it wants more of that dang food. LOL! Well. So as I eat I think to myself, "Now did that bite satisfy me yet?" "Nope." "Okay, I'll eat more." Lots of grins here. Sheesh! Like...I'd prefer to just GOBBLE it all down, thank you very much. And so I get to the point where I've finished eating. Then I sit there and try to decide how I'm feeling. Hmmm. Let's see. "Tum-tum, are you full?" "No, definitely not." Okay, not full. That's good. "Tum-tum are you still hungry?" "No, but if you want, I could definitely grub on more." Ahhh, da tums is a comedian. Well, I'll ignore that and not join in the act. So if da tums isn't full and she's not hungry, then she must be satisfied. "Tum-tum are you satisfied?" "Yeah, I guess. I'm not full or hungry, just in the middle, but no pun intended." I guess that means I could go for another 2-3 hours before I'll need to 'filler up' again. Hmmm. So if she's not full and she's not hungry, then the term satisfaction is the way da tums is feeling now.

Satisfaction is now my goal when I eat. I cannot eat until I'm stuffed or full, nor can I eat and remain hungry. I have to find that middle ground. It's almost like leaving a little bit of space for ease. It's like sewing, leaving a bit of room for movement. This is where I have to ignore my mind because it loves to make comments when I'm done eating my portions. It reminds me how good and delish the food was and it would be great to have more and that a little bit more won't hurt. Uh-huh, right, just shut up, why don't you! Sometimes I have to be rude like that. I just have to shut down my mind and respond according to how da tums is feeling....that feeling of satisfaction is my boundary and my newly-developed technique for losing the excess I've been lugging around for years. Through it all though, IT'S ALL GOOD.